Time

It's strange how you feel time. To some a minute is sixty seconds. But not every one feels that. We know its just 60 clicks of the watch. Yet we don't watch every second tick away do we? We let those seconds fly. But we don't realize that those flown seconds can never come back. We have lots of seconds wasted in our lifetime. But I don't like to think that a second is wasted. To me a second is invested. How well that second is invested is how good we use it. Thinking for a second, we could do things properly for the next 59 seconds. Hmmm. If thats the rate we could use time. How much of things I could do by thinking for 2 months? Roughly I should have profitted for 118 months? about close to 10 years eh? Thats exactly how much time I was given and how long I try to simulate if my current position is any good. 2 months I have gambled and tried to calculate here and there with and with out my emotions, with and without money and support, all pointing to the same thing, unthinkable.

So what does a man do when its unthinkable? I mean just do. Just jump, hope to god that some one with a parachute will catch up with you as you drop from the plane, or theres some one who is also free falling infront of you, maybe you could catch up. But both are wishful thinking. Reality is if you are gonna jump, be prepared. Theres still a chance for the unexpected.

They say the human organ doesn't die even after the soul has been suck out. Thats true considering if it weren't true, then there could have never been any organ transplant. But I wonder what the brain feels after hitting a wall as it drops from the sky. I don't believe theres any way to die painlesly. If pain is only define by the sensation of the neuron's cells, then the pain should end as the body expires. But given more taught, the pain also has another side which is pain define by emotional sensations. Put that into account we can see that pain of death is either by the sensations of neurons or sensations of emotions. To effectively eliminate both pain for death, the mental state of a person is able to create its own method in surpressing the sensations of neurons. This method is easily describe like some one who is motivated to gain something, so he sacrifices another in the belief that it will be rewarded with some thing greater. But the sensation of emotions can not be surpressed by a sensation from neurons. Or could it? Well thats where mind over matter comes into play. The right neurons are surpressed and the left are being activated. And the pain of loosing or expiring might be overcomed when the mind is ready to accept the conditions.

Oh well time will tell.

Dr-ai saying hello.