If walls could speak....

This is a personal blog regarding my own views and experience. Primarily to mirror myself in time. You are welcomed to read, but you may need more insight to understand whats in here. Life can Push us around, it can also play you around. We all have difficulties in life, but some time its best to reflect on what we ourselves has gone through to understand the magnitude of our journey in this short life. Enjoy! :)

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

My life is going to change Phase 3

This whole month, Love is in the air :p n I love it! So what does that have to do with my life changing? Big things are happening and things are "falling into place". Yesterday, the interview wasnt so hopeful, so its okay. I spent the moment after that to value my present with my significant other. So I spent it all, coz Im never sure about the future. Let God decide. Thats what I was doing and thats what Im going to continue doing.

Today I wake up fresh and drank my morning milo, read the newspaper, its been like a whole month of darkness. Drama in politics, the economy and reading the numbers of people who got retrenched. Not knowing how important today's interview is. I got my self ready. The funny thing is.... every day is a brand new day. I slip in the same shoes as I put on yesterday, felt something different in my left shoe... thinking it was my old socks.... I place my hand to grab it out. To my surprise! Its a frog! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa eeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww The cold blooded frog was like a slime! i threw the shoe to the ground... washed my hands and look at my watch... I have no time!
Now since I am running out of time.... I have to battle a frog for my shoe! Yeah right *sarcastic* but I manage to get the frog out and soon I see the cats are ready for their meal and frogs were on their menu. Good Luck froggy!

Got my shoe and drove to the interview! hehehe and now I got the job! Wee in this time of uncertain economic situations, I could still get a job. I consider that fortunate. Thank God its a post I wanted.
Syukur.....
And that frog might have been a test to see how I handle unexpected surprises.

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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Where have I heard this before?

Recently I've been counting my blessings. The best do come to those who are patient. I'm thinking here about what I've been through. I sold my car and came back nothing but a few piece of papers. I have felt the heat and regret. But now I'm being redeemed by what I wanted the most. A family.

My sisters coming back home. I'm happy, my mom is happy, Taufiq? im not so sure coz he knows he's gonna get more trouble from kakdee now! hehehehe. But the thing is Dee asked me about her AP and her car. Would it be better to just let the car there in UK or bring it back? A question that I once asked my self in Japan.

Actually my car is totally different than Kak Dee's car. Why? its a two seater, kak Dee's a 5 seater. So better, in short, its worth it. About the repair... its a lot. Im not joking. The tax, at minimal coz its an old car. The worth of the car has already depreciated and not bought at a high price here lately. But the transportation cost, container from UK to Malaysia is surprisingly at its lowest. Not only that she could fit in alot of other things in there making the container worth the trip.

So of course in kak dee's mind shes weighing the cost to usability issue. But honestly, if my car was transported here. I still think Its worth the trouble. The car was still reliable, in good condition and no major repairs needed.

Is the car usable? Yes. Is the cost to transport high? No. Is the tax expensive? not likely considerable coz its an old car. The car is in good condition? It has already changed its Chain once. So theres still more mileage here. The spare parts are also here.... to a some extent.

Finally... I think its a good choice to bring the car back. The burden of dollars and cents are a lil high. But definately on last resort the car can still be sold. Of course thats the last resort. Only if all else cant be helped. If Dee had the chance I say Go for it. Dont make the same mistake I did. Thats my advice.

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Sunday, February 15, 2009

My life is going to change, Phase 2

Learning to handle new situations in my daily life, step by step. Why? I planned when Ill graduate but I never planned anything in between, I seem to be moving and stationary at the same time.... is that possible?

I think 2 weeks have expired, Im not gonna get those jobs. But that doesnt solve the problem with financial either. But I gained more insights and tricks of trades, after each learning cycle I change my threshold weights.

Im happier even though I have no money? Crazy eh? Thats why I say my life is gonna change. Moneys there its just delayed, but It will come. The question is How much :D hehehehe.

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Manage your Week(weak)! or the week(weak) will manage you!

Hmmm its been a while. Its been good ;D. Im happier, I have so much coming in from all sides, like my investments, my PC repairs, my web designs, my image editing, my research, my teaching, my relationship :D. So much to be thankful of ;)

So where do I start. Ok for starters Id like to share my Experience being shot to death in a classroom.... I mean literally ... I almost lost my mind. I had to substitute teaching science for year 4 and 5 elementary students. I know Ive taught some japanese students at the same age group. But teaching that night... was a like micromanaging questions and suplying answers. So it wasnt that hard eh? Well try explaining what a dynamo is while some one in the back is farting out laud.... and since the room is air conditioned .... it didnt help. The kids are smart. They ask a lot of questions... problem is .. EVERY ONE ASKING AT THE SAME TIME!!!! I felt like shouting.., 1 At a time please! For an instant I felt how it was becoming the Speaker for the Parliment. I mean his words to describe members of the parliment all are like small school kids.... Ill say hes right.

At the end of the day I have increased my respect of school teachers, and I acknowledge that They are far superior than Lecturers dealing with "Intelligent and Morally sane" Students :) .....or I could be wrong....

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Monday, February 02, 2009

All niter?

Well today was a long day. I knew I started early, but some how, I dont think 24 hours is enough for a day. I haven't touched my research material in days. I did do some reading, but that isnt enough. Theory aint practice.

So how do I juggle my days? Seems my week has already been pack even before I started. I ask my self why? Is it because I want to? or Is it because I have to? Money is the root of all evil. But some times I do things for free, just to plant seeds in hopes one day it would be a tree of gold? Men dreams of ridiculous fantasies. Life is hard. Who you mingle are all choices you make.

Some times we make bad choices. And that would take years to fix. But a second to avoid. I dont know. Its 6 AM and I havent slept. Im afraid I might have to go through this again next month, and the months after that. Until when I ask? Until I dont have to do it no more. Im tired. Im the conflict of the heart is some thing I could be assured of, to me thats the one thing for escape for the time being.

Do stuff with out asking anything in return. May God (Allah) be the one to repay my efforts. At least it comes in a combo of 1 and 7. One now, 7 later. :) A business that will never fail.

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